april423

You ever have one of those nights  when everything makes you nuts? Well i’m obviously having one of those!!!

We had to attend a play at church that our son was in. He volunteered to help the young children. It turned out very nice. It was funny because there were two little boys fighting lol. but we all had a good laugh!

Then when we got home seems the kids got all hyper and wouldn’t settle down. Then the cat when crazy and started knocking balls off the christmas tree and then chasing them around the room.

I’m looking forward to this week yet dreading it. It’s the week I should finally finish up on my deadline, which means I should get finished and then get a couple of days off to actually do some things around here that really need tending to. However, I don’t like being home. I get bored easily and so being home lands me pacing around, wondering what to do next!

Anyways I’m looking forward to a good healthy week, filled with lots of water and veggies! Have a great week everyone!

I’m not a very rested person. Normally I’m late to bed and early to rise. I’m normally up by 5:15am each day. It takes a couple of moments to get awake and get going but then i’m feeling good till around lunch when I start running on fumes. Then my energy levels will rise again in later afternoon. I manage pretty nicely this way.

However I slept till 9am this morning. Very unusual for me and boy am I able to tell it. I feel still and almost cranky. I know I slept way to long and so it will take forever for me to get going and I’ll feel the need to nap alot today.

Needless to say I’ve got alot to get accomplished today so i’m going to have to push through this. I’ve gotta stop being lazy. I know i’ve only been up 40 minutes but I feel like i’m wasting the day away.

Tomorrow is my weigh in and I’m worried that I haven’t accomplished anything. However I’m not going to stress over it because I’m just getting started and just like when we learn to walk we stumble and fall. I’m just going to pick myself up and keep going!!

Have a great Sunday everyone!

One day and man and his wife are working outside. The wife bends over and the husband is like OMG Your ass is as wide as the  grill. Well that didn’t set to well with the wife but she didn’t say anything.

Later that night the husband comes to bed and rolls over and says baby you wanna make love and the wife responds with……. What makes you think i’m gonna light up this grill for one little wienie!

haha I think sometimes we just need a good laugh, especially at the end of a long week. Have a great weekend everyone!

You know as overweight people we generally know we are “fat” however we don’t always “Feel” fat.

Today though I’m totally feeling fat. I feel like my clothes don’t sit right like i’m constantly adjusting them trying to make them do things they don’t want to.

I’m guessing it’s just one of those days however when you have one they really bug ya! You go into the store and you feel like all eyes are upon you like omg what is the fat chick buying? haha….. Most days aren’t like that but I have those moments when i’m standing at the check out counter and thinking damn I bought more junk that good. Even if it isn’t true in my mind it is.

I guess that’s something we each have to deal with in our own way. I personally try to hold conversations with my children when I’m in one of these moods. In fact sometimes they laugh at me because they know i’m feeling “confined” almost trapped in the darn store. I don’t like big groups of people as it is  but you get me on a fat day and Dang it’s way worse.

So how do you deal with these moments?

Come to the realization that our children don’t need us like they once did.

I wrote last night that my son is turning 16 today and he’s growing up fast. This morning when I went to wake him up. I just laid down beside him and stared at that little mop of curls and noticed just how much he doesn’t look like my little boy anymore. He’s grown up. Most people think he’s 18. Let’s hold off on that one people!!

My daughter is also growing up quickly. Today she is giving a huge speech in front of our state representative and several other big named people. I couldn’t do it lol. It’s hard to believe this is the same girl that at 4 years old wouldn’t go to girl scouts cause she’d have to participate lol. Now she’s giving big speeches. Next month she’ll be going and giving a speech before the house of representatives. I’m so nervous for her but she doesn’t seem nervous at all.

I got up and exercised this morning. I’ve gotten NaColes clothes ironed and now i’m going to get ready to head to work. NaCole has to be at school early for a BPA *( business professionals of Amercia) meeting and tonight the kids have church and their father and I have a Booster club meeting.

Hope you all have a good day and parents give your kids that extra hug this morning!!

Tomorrow morning at 7:45am my son will be 16. I’m excited and sad all at the same time. He’s growing up so quickly. He’s not quite my baby anymore! But damn I’m proud of him. He’s got a big heart and I know he’s going to be quite a man!

I tried to post a photo of  my son but it wouldn’t let me so I’m adding it to my photos!

My entire adult life has always revolved around my children. They are my everything. They are just the most precious gifts I’ve ever recieved. Well my youngest who will be 15 next month is home sick. It started yesterday morning with vomiting and now she has a sore throat on top of it.

My work schedule is very tight right now. We have dead lines and well if I miss work i’m messing up my deadlines. When I work I always give 100% and so when my kids become ill I feel very guilty about what to do.

My child doesn’t really need me to stay home other than “mommy” time. However my work needs me very much at the moment. If it were January it would be easier. I’d breeze right by and stay home but i’m fighting myself over it today.

My children rarely get sick. I’ve always been blessed in that area. They are extremely healthy. However there are many viruses going around our area right now so it was just a matter of time before one of them became ill.

Anyways I’m just stressing.

We all know that Christmas is coming and it’s a hard time for people to stick to diets. There are so many tempting things during the holiday season that it’s hard to be “good” to yourself.

I have 3 parties to attend on top of 4 different places to celebrate. We’ll be making the rounds like we do every holiday. People always want you to eat when you come to theirs as well.

During Thanksgiving I worked hard not to eat every where. I avoided the desserts and I was pretty proud of myself but Christmas brings out the sneak in me. All the fudge and bon bons OMG! I’m so going to have to carry a bag of carrots everywhere and just avoid all kitchens all together.

So what are your plans for avoiding over eating during this holiday season?

My children had a pig show today in Texas. So we were out and on the road by 6am. I didn’t eat breakfast or lunch today and for dinner all I had was a bowl of chili and some multi grain Crackers.

I don’t feel like I accomplished much today yet I’m totally tired! I’m hoping to wake up energized and ready to go in the morning. I don’t want to start lagging and not keep on exercising like I have been.

Hope you all had a great day!

I’ve been thinking about my weight and how being out of control of my weight has fallen into other areas of my life.

 First let me say that my life has always been a battle. My father was a drunk who beat the hell out of people even if he didn’t have a reason. So being in control has never been something I’ve been. I got married young had my first child in the middle of my senior year in high school. I went right back to 132 lbs before I ever left the hospital. Then 5 months later I found out I was pregnant with my second child. After her delivery I weighed in at 194lbs. I was at that weight for many years. Then I gained up to 230. I was there for about 5 years. Then dropped down to 190. Then I started this new job and went up to where I am now. It’s pitiful! I’ve noticed though that if one area is out of control other areas more than likely are as well.Like my organizational skills. I use to be the one people came to when they were figuring out how to get things in order and now my own world is out of order. If I make it to work and back home, I feel accomplished lol.  I’m a perfectionist. If I can’t complete a project at that very moment then I just put it off all together then I get mad that I haven’t accomplished anything! My husband and kids constantly have to remind me to do things. There was a time I’d have things done before people needed it now I’m lucky if I remember a week later!!!  My kids get home at 3:15 everyday. Al and I get home around 5pm and yet none of their chores are done. I don’t get it. Why not just do it instead of me having to come home and threaten bodily harm before doing it. Then when you do get around to it they only do it half way. It makes no sense to me yet it comes back to the obvious bad example that I as a parent have been setting. So I think that in order to regain control I first have to regain control of me, My weight and my time. Just something I needed to think about. Do you guys see these type of patterns in your own lives?