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Well got up and weighed in and obviously I put back on the 2lbs. Oh well I’m moving forward from that!

My Goals for this week are as follows:

1. Drink Plenty of water.
2. Keep track over everything I eat
3. Get Moving, I need to move this body. My work requires I sit more than I move So I must find more time to get myself moving.
4. Give at least 10 minutes to myself daily. Do something good for me and myself alone.

The things I’m Grateful for

1.  First and foremost Life! Everyday I wake up is a blessing from God.
2. My ability to still walk. I only have one hip and it’s not as happy as it once was so Everyday that I’m on my feet and able to walk is a blessing.
3. I’m thankful for my family. Al and my children, stand beside me no matter what. They want me to succeed. Now I have to let myself.
4. I’m thankful for this site. The people here having me looking deeper into myself. I’m no longer just skimming the chunky edges I’m searching deeply into my soul.

I’m going to do some research into different exercises that won’t put alot of undue stress on my hips. It’s time I get myself in gear. I’ll need you guys to remind me from time to time why I’m trying. I tend to be my own worst critic and as a Taurus I tend to be a bit lazy! Don’t let me and I’ll try not to let you!!

Growing up with an Alcoholic for a father and a mother who was abused and broken didn’t make my childhood easy. I’ve never dealt with stress very well, however I was never “big” until after the birth of my second child. When I got pregnant with my daughter I weighed 132lbs. Then after I gave birth I weighed 194.

About 6 months after she was born my spouse and I had some major issues arrise. I honestly didn’t think we’d last through it. I went into a pretty deep depression and I turned to food. I wasn’t active. I stayed home all the time just taking care of my kids.

I think that part of my life carried on for about 10 years. I couldn’t seem to shake the depression and all my insecurities.

Problem is once I started living again I couldn’t figure out how to remove food from my life. When i’m stressed I want to eat. When Al or the kids frustrate me I want to eat. Heck I want to eat even when i’m bored. Thing is though i’m not a “big eater”. I don’t eat a lot of food. The problem is I eat the wrong foods when I do eat.

I need to spend this year finding new things to do with my time. I need to eat more real meals and lay off the junk. I need to speak up more. Stop stuffing away my feelings. Just deal with them head on.

This year its going to be about being good to me. Taking care of me. My kids are old enough to take care of themselves for the most part. It’s time to focus on the person I’ll be living with the rest of my life. Me!

2007 was a hard year for me. I put on at least 30lbs this year alone. Well no more of that. I’m tired of seeing numbers go up! It’s time to head down the hill and enjoy the rewards at the bottom.

I’ve had a lot of death in my life this year, and since I’m leaving 2007 behind I’d just like to take the time to say goodbye to a few people.

Kristopher, they’ve finally caught the man who killed you and they are going to bring him to justice. You were a wonderful man. Even though I’ll always see you as my baby cousin you grew up nicely. I’m just sorry that you weren’t allowed to live your entire life. 23 years just doesn’t seem enough. Goodbye baby boy!

Grandpa wilson- You will be missed.

Kenneth- I hope your life is better now. rest easy!

Uncle steve- I know that your death was an accident and that we can’t bring you back. We are watching over your children. They are wonderful kids.Good bye Steve!

Aunt Mary- I sure do miss your phone calls. Especially the ones when i wasn’t home and you’d leave me all those crazy messages. I loved them and I love you. I wasn’t ready to say goodbye to you but I know that you are with our family and you are at peace. Love you bunches.

Aunt Evelyn- You gave me more love than I could ever ask for from any one person. I’m so going to miss you and I just hope that at the reunions I can make you proud of me. You’ve been setting me up for this for a long time and I can’t resist anymore. Ronnie and Bob have really been blessings in my life and I hope that I can find that with brucie as well. Love you…..

Now for my final goodbye. Goodbye stress and anxiety. Goodbye worry and doubt. It’s time for me to step up and for you to bow out!!

Here’s to all of us a healthy 2008!

I actually got to stay home with my kids yesterday so I didn’t follow anything lol.

I ended up eating a handful of (plain) tortilla chips for breakfast! Then I had a cup of chicken noodle soup for lunch. Then last night I had chicken alfredo!  Then the worst part was I had an oreo then I had one of these other cookies we make at the holidays. It’s two ritz crackers with peanutbutter in the center dipped in white chocolate. They are too good to pass up. After I had one I put them out of my sight and well didn’t eat any more!

Didn’t exercise either yesterday. I worked with the kids on cleaning up from the holidays. Getting the tree down and put away and things of that nature. Anyways Fixing to get ready for work. My main goal for today is to not allow my co-workers to coax me into eating junk. They are all overeaters! And as so they try to get you to eat everything with them. Today I just say NO!!!

Have a great weekend everyone!

I have to say I’m proud of myself to a degree. Yes only to a degree because I did eat a couple of BonBons! Other than that though I controlled myself quite nicely!

I enjoyed time with my family and it was overall a good time. I have to say though I’m glad its over. Life can get back to normal. I’m finished up my deadline and now I can relax a little. I am fixing to tackle the filing system at work though. I was looking for something and it was no where to be found. I’m not sure how it go that way but i’m going to work on it! I can’t handle not finding things!

I think this year I need to work on my ability to follow routines. I think that I need to be more dependable to myself. Everyone else can depend on me however, I stick at being dependable for me!!

I’m going to start watching everything I eat. Avoid tootsie Rolls at all costs! Water and I must learn to be good friends. I need more of it! So time to start fitting it in!

Anyways it’s a pretty relaxed evening. Can’t complain really. Hope you all had a Good Wednesday and enjoy the rest of your week as well!

Well Goodmorning boys and girls! It’s a busy holiday weekend and I haven’t had a moment to sit down and catch up with you. So I’m trying to sneak it in now!

We went to a christmas party Friday night and had a great time. I avoided all goodies with no problems. They had veggie and fruit trays so I stuck with them. We were suppose to go to another friends Christmas party last night but opted out. There are always a lot of drinkers there and so we decided to skip it and just went out and delivered gifts to other people we know. Al made me and some of our friends Custom fireplace doors for Christmas. They are wonderful. We had a great time going and delivering these.

Today is Al’s grandmothers Christmas and So I made my normal salad which i’d be killed for if I didn’t lol. Basically it’s just Broccoli, Califlower, Cucumbers, Carrots and diced ham. Then you add some ranch dressing to it! The secret to this is chopping everything very very small which takes forever. Then just adding enough ranch for taste.

Then NaCole and I made a dozen mini fresh Apple loaves for Al’s grandpa who loves them. So we made them where they are single servings so he can freeze them and just pull out one when he wants.’

We also made shortbread cookies then dipped half in chocolate and rolled in nuts. I think the kids will enjoy them today.

Tomorrow we are off to my family’s house which is about 2 hours away we will spend the night and return Tuesday evening. Al and I both work on Wednesday so we’ve got to get home and rest up!

I’m squeezing in exercise every free moment I can. It’s hard when you are running around non stop.

Merry Christmas everyone. I wish you Love, Joy, and Faith, I also wish each of you the ability to never give up Hope!!!

Really trying to hold me down!! Yesterday I darn near fell asleep twice at work and this morning it doesn’t seem any better. Only good thing is I should be finished up with my major work today so my deadline will be finished. I can then get some rest. I’m thinking that once I finish I may come home early and try and nap for a while. We have a parent vs. Student ballgame tonight as a fund raiser and so I need to be on my toes.

The holidays are moving in so fast!!! Starting tomorrow it’s a whirlwind of parties and gatherings. Going to try and get some exercise in just now sure yet when and how!

I also want to say Thank you!! I’m so glad I joined this site. You guys are so full of motivation and inspiration I know that I will reach my goals. Yes I’m starting out slowly but I gained the weight slowly so that’s how I expect to lose it.

Merry Christmas and Have a wonderful New Year!

I think we tend to allow negative thoughts to fill our heads. I’ve always believed in the power of positive thinking. Like looking in your mirror every morning and saying out loud I am beautiful and I’m worth it!

So I think i’ll post affirmations here on occasion. I hope some of you can take them and make them work for you!

 Todays affirmation……..

Every word I speak and thought I have is an affirmation.
Negative thoughts bring negative experiences. Today I choose positive
thoughts and words for my good.

I’d be in such good shape lol!

That time of year where colds are common and tissues go quickly. To bad we can’t gain muscles from all the coughing and sneezing!

Anyways this week is busy. Christmas party at work tomorrow, A ball game Thursday night, A Party Friday and Saturday night. Al’s grandmas christmas on Sunday then off to my parents on Monday! Busy Busy Busy, Then Christmas day we have to hit 3 places.

Gonna avoid all goodies!!

I’ve been reading alot of what has been posted lately in blogs and forums, and I must ask Why are we so Desperate to lose the weight?

We didn’t gain this weight overnight, and we didn’t frantically try to lose it each day either. Then one day each of us woke up and decided that we couldn’t take it anymore……

I think part of our problem is desperation. We get all paniced and we think we must lose it quickly and be done with it. Basically we are setting ourselves up for failure.

We must stop being desperate to lose the weight. We’ve gotta start living for the moment. Live each day as if it were our last. Each morning wake up tell ourselves that today we are going to live healthy. Choose to eat right and get in more exercise that day. Don’t worry about tomorrow or 10 years from now. Worry about the here and now.

Today for me, I’m going to work at 7:30 am and I’ll be getting off of work at 4:30. I’m going to try and eat 1 egg and 3 slices of bacon for breakfast. I read somewhere that bacon actually doesn’t have many carbs in it so it’s better for you. It’s the carbohydrates that are worse for you than fat. So i’m going to be choosing my foods for a while based on the number of carbs vs. how much fat it has.

There are 3 flights of stairs in my office and I plan on getting up and down them at least 3 times today. I also plan on getting my exercise ball out in just a few minutes and putting in some time.

Once I leave work I have to work at the ball game this afternoon. Then I’m coming home and hopefully fixing a good healthy dinner.

Have a Great healthy day everyone!